"Tapas has the sense of 'cooking' ourselves in the fire of discipline to transform ourselves into something else. It is our determined effort to become someone of character and strength. Much like cooking a egg denatures the egg, changing it into a different structure, Tapas eventually changes our nature, turning us into a cauldron that can withstand any of life's challenges. Tapas is the day to day choice to burn non-supportive habits of the body and mind, choosing to forsake momentary pleasures for future rewards....Tapas is growing our ability to stay in the unknown and the unpleasantness, rather than run in fear. It is the willingness to be both burned and blessed." Deborah Adele, The Yamas and Niyamas
It's the real deal now, folks. Juice fast, day one. To be honest, I have felt pretty okay all day until now. Right now I am starving. Otherwise, I felt kinda jazzed up all day, a little edgy, a little short tempered maybe, but full of energy. I think I need to balance out tomorrow's sugar content with more greens.
So now is when the self discipline really sets in. But I have a new mantra. One minute more. If I can last one minute more, I can last five minutes more. And if I can last five, I can last ten, until it becomes endless, really. I really haven't missed eating all that much today, and if I can do this today, I can do it tomorrow. There is really a sense of empowerment that comes with fasting, the sense that if I can control my body's urges, there isn't much I can't do.
But that is all I have for now. I am tired and done for the day.
One minute more. If I can hold my own feet to the fire for one minute more, who knows what I can do.
